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Now, in my late 20s, this was a new kind of first date—one with a couple. They said they were curious about threesomes, but had never tried because navigating the world of polyamory felt like a minefield. As a person with a comically massive reserve of anxiety, I too fear uncharted territory. Throughout my life, this cognitive dissonance was only further complicated by external judgment I received for my impulses to try unconventional things. I now understand that my curiosity, open-mindedness, and sense of adventure are three nonnegotiable, defining elements of my identity.
Finding the strength to explore these more complicated, passionate aspects of my personality became the key to harnessing my voice and creative spark, which in turn helped me better cope with depression, anxiety, and the lingering cognitive effects of adolescent anorexia. When people think about three-ways, intimacy may not be the first thing to come to mind. It can certainly be all of those things she says with a naughty smilebut when a couple invites me into their bed, I not only get welcomed into the midst of their preexisting connection, but also get to forge a new one with them based on their trust that I will respect the boundaries of their relationship.
This is a vulnerable position all around: for the couple in opening their connection to a newcomer, and for the unicorn in entering a power dynamic where they are the only one without an established teammate. Once I was single, I immediately began to make up for lost time.
I took soul-nourishing psychedelic trips into the desert with friends. I broke my stainless steel bed frame with tons of great and safe sex.No Pants, No Problem: Camping at the Magic Circle in Quartzsite, Arizona
Of all of the variants of ecstasy I experienced during that period, the ecstasy of unbridled self-discovery was the most metamorphic. I had gone through various experimentation phases throughout high school and college, but those bold sometimes unwise choices were inextricably intertwined with adolescent angst and rebellion.Revealing Stories from Cruise Ship Workers
Finding my wildness as an adult was much more peaceful—it was not reacting or crying out but intentionally searching. Threesomes were at the center of a personal Venn diagram. I had known for some time that I was at least bisexual but had barely explored that side of my sexuality.
I knew I wanted to experience new dynamics. And I knew the fearful charge around dating couples meant there was something to learn. I appreciated the novelty and suspected I had found a hidden gem. As I scrolled and chatted, I felt a common vibe unifying many of the profiles, but the range of gender identities, sexual orientations, and diverse interests made it difficult to articulate what that commonality was. It was refreshing to be on a platform where radical open-mindedness was the baseline, and it cemented how important that value is to me as I search for my own partner. As with any online forum, I had to weed out the occasional creep, but in general, the people I connected with were clear communicators and more transparent about difficult subjects like STD status than I had ever encountered before.
One woman I chatted with mentioned that she was looking for someone to dominate her but be submissive to her boyfriend. I am typically more sexually submissive, but as we were texting which quickly turned into sextingI tried on this authoritative sexual persona. I was pleased to discover that, having been a submissive myself, finding the language to turn Isabella on came naturally to me. I was, in turn, very turned on by turning her on. I soon learned that traditionally awkward moments tend not to stay awkward between open and direct people.
From the moment I greeted the couple—and realized I needed to decide whom to acknowledge first—it became clear how different this experience was going to be from any date. On a two-person date and certainly on a heteronormative onethere tends to be an unconscious blueprint of the basic order of operations: you sit across from each other at the table, ask each other questions, maybe argue over the check. A date with three people, however, is more like volleying a beach ball with no net and no playbook. The fluidity of the situation made autopilot impossible, which made me realize how often I do go on autopilot, in dating and otherwise.
I thought more consciously about what I wanted to do or say in each moment. At whom did I want to bat my new eyelash extensions?
Did I want to ask questions about him, her, or their relationship? Even small details like the seating arrangement required more active attention. A unicorn not only dates the individuals, but also dates the relationship. This third force to flirt with is undoubtedly the most interesting one. My mind became a lens through which Isabella and Oliver got to know each other better. I got an unexpected rush from asking Isabella a question about her childhood that Oliver had never thought to ask her in their years of dating.
Isabella and I had instant chemistry. For the rest of the night, as well as on future dates with other couples, I found myself seducing the connection between the partners more than either of them individually. Feeling my perspective stoke their attraction to one another was like taking a visceral tour of the inner workings of their mutual magnetism, which was simultaneously arousing and fascinating. After the drinks portion of the evening, we went back to their place.
At one point, Oliver and I had sex while Isabella watched—actively. There was no doubt that his desire to fulfill her was the deeper motivation for filling me. Sharing this unique perspective on their relationship was among our most intimate moments. My heightened response to their energetic flow also started me on the path to identifying as pansexual, which feels more precise than bisexuality.
I am attracted to people based on their presence and energy regardless of their biological sex, gender, or gender identity. I want to live in a world where we talk about sex as comfortably as we talk about food or the weather.
Because of my openness on the subject, virtual strangers have often felt comfortable confessing burdensome secrets about their sexuality. Being someone who people like Oliver and Isabella entrust with their most cherished relationship fulfills me in a similar way. It reminds me of the specific beauty inherent in my open way of being—a way that has gotten me slut-shamed for most of my life and still does. Recently, in one such dark spiral, my therapist asked me to name some qualities I valued in myself. My response was deafening silence. Then, I recalled locking eyes with Isabella while locking, well, everything else with Oliver.
It might sound ridiculous, but that salacious memory conjured and crystalized a list of my unique characteristics that not only made that night possible, but also made it a beautiful experience for everyone involved. I know now that I am empathetic, radically open-minded, profoundly adventurous, and fiercely committed to telling stories that reduce the stigma surrounding sexuality and mental health—including this one, right now.
In these sexually-limiting pandemic times, reliving my spicy threesome memories has been a much-needed, COVID-free crutch for a single gal and her vibrators. This sex-positive community has emphasized for me that one size does not fit all, which means I am also not trying to disparage anyone who prefers complete monogamy.
I am still seeking mine.
One of the most frustrating misconceptions about sexually adventurous people is that we are somehow less responsible. But the opposite may be true. Shining a communal light on sexuality makes it harder for darkness, like assault and trauma, to fester.
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